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Saturday, April 11, 2020

Day 20: Musings from my daily walk

Twentieth of March, my birthday, was the day we last (physically) interacted with someone outside our 3-person household. It's almost three weeks since we started isolating ourselves from the world outside our 'bubble'. In a way, stress levels are no longer as high as pre-lockdown. We have settled into this new normal. We are a little past half-way through the level-4 lockdown, in this lockdown reality we know what is expected out of us, and we manoeuvre around it.

One of my new routines is my daily walk. During my 45-minute stroll, I pray with special intentions regarding the COVID19 situation, I try to not use social media, and I reflect on what's happening around us. I ask questions that don't have any answers yet.

What will life be like after the lockdown?
Should I continue to work from home?
When will borders open again?
What is the situation in the Philippines?
How are my siblings, my parents, and Marion?
What's next for them in Cebu, Cotabato, and Manila?
When will I be able to visit the Philippines?
What's next for me if borders will become tighter?
What about the future, beyond the next few months?
... and so on ...

I have read many articles describing what post-level-4 lockdown life will be like. One thing is for sure, it won't be back to the way things were. As we leave lockdown, I anticipate that there will be some relief that we get to move about more freely. But I also expect a spike in stress and anxiety. For now, we can take some rest midway through this lockdown. Things will be still and constant for another two weeks. Then we go forward again into the unknown.

I wish everyone a restful and joyful Easter.



Stay safe and stay home!






Day 19: Good Friday

I forgot to log an entry for yesterday! But here are some thoughts I shared on Facebook yesterday:

Good Fridays are silent. In the Philippines, I remember when I was younger, no one goes out on a Good Friday. All the shops used to be closed and broadcast TV channels were offline (or running reruns of 7th Heaven). We may visit the church, but even then, there is no regular mass. It's a sombre day to reflect on Jesus' death on the cross.
It was a quiet Good Friday for me. I spent a few moments in reflection and I prayed especially for those who are ill and lonely during these times.

Thursday, April 9, 2020

PhD Thesis Acknowledgements

I recently completed the requirements for my doctoral degree, there are many people to thank! I copy-pasted here the acknowledgements I put in my thesis (with really minor edits because there are always typos).

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

My PhD story is not one without challenges, but I thoroughly enjoyed the entirety of the experience thanks to the support and love I received from so many people.

My sincerest gratitude goes to Dr Raj Prasanna, my primary supervisor, for being there every step of the way. He saw through my insecurities in engaging in socio-technical research and mentored me to develop skills and helped me gain confidence as a researcher. I will not be the researcher I am today without him.

I have been privileged to have a caring supervision team who gave me their time, energy, and enthusiasm. Each one had a unique way of providing guidance that made my work holistic. Dr Kristin Stock asked the challenging questions that made my research robust. I am grateful for her thought-provoking yet encouraging perspectives. Dr Emma Hudson-Doyle asked the ‘why’ questions, allowing me to see the bigger picture. I am thankful for her detailed, constructive, and reassuring feedback. Dr Graham Leonard grounded my research to practice by providing the opportunity to engage with the alerting research community in New Zealand. His guidance was instrumental in the development of my data-gathering methods. Professor David Johnston strengthened my work by giving me platforms to share my research with the national and international research communities. I am grateful for his constant support throughout my PhD.

My sincere thanks go to Deborah Smith, Marcus Bird, and Kevin Fenaughty for allowing me to learn from, and contribute to, the New Zealand Red Cross Hazard working group and the Common Alerting Protocol working group. My immersion in these groups shaped my perspectives on apps and alerting, and made me strive to do useful research. I also thank my survey respondents, usability inquiry interviewees, expert evaluators, and pilot testers—my PhD would not be possible without their participation. My PhD was funded by the New Zealand International Doctoral Scholarship and the Massey University College of Humanities and Social Sciences Doctoral Scholarship. I could not do the PhD without their generous financial support.

My special thanks go to the Joint Centre for Disaster Research (JCDR) community.  I would not have enjoyed this experience without the company of the PhD students who walked with me through the ups and downs of the PhD journey. My love to Dr Nancy Brown, Dr Mina Adhikari, Miles Crawford, Syed Yasir Imtiaz, Lisa McLaren, Ashleigh Rushton, Sara Harrison, Lesley Gray, Bruce Pepperell, Rangika Nilani, and Ayisha Shaik. My life in JCDR was also made vibrant with the presence of the staff, post-docs, interns, and visiting scholars. I want to acknowledge Dr Abi Beatson, Liza Hoefnagels, and Dr Noriko Imura for their care during their time at the centre.

It was challenging to be away from family while doing this PhD. However, I found different ‘families’ in New Zealand that sustained me. The Kia Maia International Student Hostel was my home for three years under the loving care of Rosemary and Graeme Wallis, and Naomi Afoa. I am grateful for the gifts of friendship from: Ye Tingting (Lindsay), Laura and Ed Holden, Pravin Thayaparan, Transi Phu, Naoto Shiota, Janice Liaw, and Teh Meng Hing. I also want to thank the New Zealand Focolare Movement, particularly to Miriam Vender, Philip Wakelin, and Cris Sebold. Not by deliberate intention but just by their loving presence they shone light in some of my darkest moments. I started practising aikido mid-way through the PhD, and I am thankful to Riai Aikido for providing me respite from academic life. My special thanks to Victor Sugijarta and Marceau Bole-Richards for their friendship off the mat. I am grateful to my ‘Stress-Free Living’ friends, Dr John Guilaran, Hanny John Mediodia, Jofferson Gonzales, Janeca and Gian Miranda, and Geo Robrigado, for opening a space for me to share both my joys and disappointments.

My deepest gratitude goes to my family in the Philippines. I am especially blessed to have loving and supportive parents, Lucas and Heddy Tan. I hope I have made them proud. My heartfelt thanks go to my twin sister, Martha Tan; though kilometres away, she has always been my shoulder to cry on and the person ever willing to listen to and laugh at all my jokes. Last, but not least, to Marion Olmillo: I am grateful for his enduring love through all these years.

Day 18: Officially completed the doctoral degree

I got an email from Massey University this morning that I officially completed the requirements for my doctoral degree!



Really happy that I've completed! To celebrate, I made slight changes to a few things:

Updated my personal page: https://sites.google.com/view/mariontan/
Updated my Twitter bio: https://twitter.com/tan_marion

Despite all that is going around, I am truly delighted that I have finished the PhD! It was an experience. Many ups and downs, but overall I enjoyed the ride.

Many many people to thank, so I'm putting my thesis acknowledgements here.









Wednesday, April 8, 2020

Day 16 - 17: Preparing and submitting a manuscript

Things are quieting down now. The number of cases in New Zealand is flattening, and it looks like there are more recoveries underway too! We are cautiously optimistic with how COVID19 is panning out in New Zealand. My prediction is life will return to some normalcy in a few weeks time. Albeit there will be strict border restriction.

I am just chipping away with my work. Trying to be as productive as possible. We were supposed to write a grant proposal that's due pretty soon, but the deadline was sooner than we expected, so we will try for the next round. We will definitely write the proposal anyway.

I also spend the yesterday and today preparing the third paper from my thesis for submission to a journal. This manuscript is a mixed-methods paper, it utilises both quantitative and qualitative methods. It proposes a usability-continuance model for disaster apps. It probably should not take this long to do the preps, as most of it has already been written up! Anyway, what's important is that I finished it today and submitted it to IJDRR. Hoping for the best!


Tuesday, April 7, 2020

Day 15: Nothing stellar

Nothing special today.

I woke up as normal. I went to work, tried to be productive and failed. I sent out a few emails, attended a few online meetings, tried to write a little bit. I ended my workday and went out for an afternoon walk (as usual since the lockdown). I played the Nintendo Switch a lot more at night than I normally do.

Nothing stellar. Just thankful that family and loved ones are safe and healthy.

Monday, April 6, 2020

Day 14: Start of Holy Week

I'm trying my best to keep up with the daily blogging. I do miss a few days where I don't write anything down for more than 24 hours. But I ensure to write something about the day post-hoc.

Day 14 -- Palm Sunday. It's strange to start the Holy Week knowing that I will not be attending any church activities. This is the holiest of all weeks in the church calendar, and not being able to participate with physical presence is just weird.

But the recent events has shown that we adapt and make meaning in different ways. This Palm Sunday was the third Sunday that I 'attended mass' with my sister in the Phillippines. The priest mentioned that maybe there is good out of this COVID19 situation. Oftentimes, we may get too busy with the externalities of the Holy Week, we are busy preparing and making sure that we attend this event or practice that custom. This 2020 Holy Week will be a quiet one, but it's in this stillness that we can reflect more deeply. Why do we do what we do? What's the meaning behind our customs and practices? We can follow Christ's passion, death, and resurrection with solemn contemplation without the distraction of externalities.

I pray for a blessed Holy Week for everyone.